Time keeps on slippin... into the future.
Has it really been a whole year since I last posted to this blog?
A year of changes and a year of the same. The routine of every day has been established in our home. School drop offs and work commutes and dinner time and weekend plans. Every week rolls by and I push through the monotony and savor the sweet moments of marriage and motherhood. I marvel at the astounding growth of the kids in such a short time and wonder what the next year has in store for us. My hands stay busy with work and cooking and cleaning and crafting. Unfortunately my camera has slipped down on my list of things to do with free time. I miss it. I truly do. If only there were 2 or maybe even 3 of me some days so I wouldn't have to RSVP no to so many of life's little opportunities.
Elijah is going to be 7 in two short months. Can you believe it? I know...Neither can I. He has developed so much in 1st grade. It blows my mind how much he has learned this year. I officially have a twinge of sadness when I look at his baby photos. That precious time of "baby" just goes by way too fast. Millie has recently had a huge growth spurt and she's gained a couple inches on Elijah in size. She's becoming such a beautiful young lady and I love the way those two play together. Elijah loves her to pieces. Ciena will be 16 next month. I remember the first time I met her in her funky shoes at 13. She's got some crazy artistic talent that is going to take her places no doubt. I couldn't have asked for better step daughters. They are sweet and smart and I love having girls to take shopping!
The other day I had dinner with a dear friend that was visiting from Southern California. She asked me what was the most unexpected thing about marriage that I have found to be true. I answered that what I didn't know was how much I would learn about myself by being married. When you're living with someone day in and day out and dealing with life's challenges you have someone that is able to call you out on your crap. And because this person is someone you love and want to be good to you can't ignore when he shines a light on your hang ups and bad habits. It's never easy to admit when you're wrong, or even recognize your unhealthy patterns. Being married has forced me to recognize that I am not always a great communicator and I have some pretty dysfunctional methods for dealing with my emotions. Of course this is a two way street and in the same way being married to Devin has given me opportunities to better myself I know he has had to face some of his own hang-ups. I didn't expect that, and although it's usually a difficult part of marriage I think it's one of the best things about it.
I am home sick today. I have had my first ever allergic reaction to something. I have never suffered from allergies and I do not envy those that do. I broke out into a crazy rash over the weekend that has caused a lot of discomfort. I finally went to see the dr. today so she could prescribe some meds to help. Unfortunately it's just a guessing game trying to figure out what caused it. As I type this my fingers are swollen to sausage size and my feet feel like they could pop. Not pleasant. I'm praying it clears up soon and it's a one time incident.
I hope all is well with you. I can't promise I'll post again anytime soon but know that I'd like to.